Sudden Realisation
The truth is, I've been feeling stressed out these few days, or even 1 or 2 wks. Been putting on my usual crazy self when i go out. But i feel choked up inside when silence haunts me. It's been really great that my jobs are going well, and there are the recent celebrations to liven moods up. I've been telling myself not to let all these stress get hold of me coz i know there are others out there who have worse problems to face and i have to be the strong one to cheer them up. But, seriously, who will stop by just to wait for me, catch hold of me even without asking wad happened coz u possibly realise im weird and lift me up until i recover? I dun wan to be a drama-mama and make u feel that i simply love seeking attention. Becoz this is my blog, i write wad i feel. I doubt anyone has that patience coz simply, our own lives are too busy for simplistic things, or things that are of less importance. Is this the so-called reliance or dependence on others tt u may say? Or rather, do u think im just putting a false facade just to let time pass by? Or would u rather i shut myself from the world and u all until im ready to face it again?
To u all, I guess I seem normal on the whole. haha. I wonder, wad sort of person am i really to anyone of u out there. Give me some time to recover.
posted @ 10:50 PM
-A Geisha's Job-
1st thing first! I just woke up! Haha.12.57pm. Wad a _____. Haven't been updating for a long while! I know. hee. I've been partially recovering from my illness, partially slacking, partially reading books, partially going for theory lessons, partially have been reading classifieds (and now no more!) and most importantly, mostly sleeping! HA. Life. Nah la...kidding. Everybody seems busy with their own job, finding jobs,going for interviews and everything...hardly get to go out with them and u all! And i even got my basic theory test and SAT exam (Eve of CNY! Bah!) next wk!
The week that I was
SICK and I still had the audacity to eat good food at Marche to celebrate Bis Bdae. HAHAHA.
The moments when I look sickly...Do i? HAHA.
Presenting to UUUUU...the day b4 I got to be a
GEISHA (as a waitress in a jap restaurant. had to wear kimono which made mi look like a maid.)
(-____-lll)
It is said that GEISHAS can speak with their eyes, esp as apprentices in order to gain attention!
Soooooo...I tried...DUN LAUGH.
DID I SUCCEEDED IN LOOKING PEK CHEK?!?!!! DID I?! DID I??!!! Bladdy Lim said i looked like a clown. I think i looked like i got
SAUSAGE LIPS!The next day, she accompanied me to go to work and I knew she had been a geisha entertaining jap customers last fri evening...sooooo...
U SEE?! SHE'S BEEN TRYING TO SEDUCE MEN! I MEAN...LITTLE BABIES!
See the diff? HAAAAAAAAAHAHAHA. My eyes are
DOUBLE the size of hers.
UH-OH.We went lunching at I-FORGOT-THE-NAME shop.
We were the only customers coz the place is pretty ulu! It was the place Anli brought me to earlier when i had my gums ache like i was bout to die. I ordered the same fish&chips (the place's known for seafood) and the woman did not hesitate to DEVOUR all my food!
HAHA. Caught red-handed. Wad a pig.
Oh, and for no reason, I kinda lurveeee this pic coz of the woman's expression!
I swear I didn't put eyeliner. Really!
After lunching, we had to cross over to the other mrt entrance when we realized that...
I ALMOST PUKED.
AND FINALLY...
!!!!!!We were strolling at Clarke Quay coz there was still 2hrs b4 work starts. Instead of getting into frenzy coz we got lost and couldn't find our way to Grand Copthorne's Hotel (coz beneath it is the place tt i work) and tot tt some magician had cast a spell to disappear the building, we called Anli a million times when she was working to ask her for directions (THANKS WOMAN!) and took a whole load of crazy photos. Haha.
This was right after I called Anli when we got lost.
MADNESS.
Rainy day! Luckily it was only drizzling when we went out of Liang Court after buying earrings and eating minimelts! HAHA.
I like this entrance! Forbbiden City!
And i like this Indian waitress! HAHA!
When we got tired from walking around in circles...haha...I told the woman I look like a samsui woman today and she...
We spotted a little boi and the woman wans to devour him like devouring her soft cream ice-cream!
EVIL! The boy's grandpa was laughing when i was taking this pic. Haha.
An
OBVIOUS sign to show that she doesn't let go of little toddlers!
Even statues!!!
Gallery Hotel! I like.
AND MY
FAVOURITEST BRIDGE!
The husky is soooo gorgeous! Ms Lim wanted to make dog meat out of it if it comes near to her. How evil.
And more silly pictures...
ZHOU CHU QU JIU YOU LUUUUU~LALALALAALALAAA~ Until i see this...
WTH.
We got bored we almost
SNORED on the pathway.
anddddddd...acted like we were pregnant ladies...
HENG THERE WAS NO ONE AROUND AH! IF NOT SUPER PAI SEH!!! I LOOK SO FAT CAN. HAHAHA. AND HER TUMMY LOOKS SO BIG!
And finally!!!
TA DAAAAA~
GRAND COPTHORNE'S HOTEL!!!!!
Robertson bridge. We needed to cross over it to get to the hotel. Satisfied look!
It is her turn to faint as she's going home and need to walk and walk again, and my turn to work! Hey I also did a lot of walking by waitressing!
My kimono that makes mi look like a maid! I recall seeing a School of Tea Ceremony at Liang Court too!
Geishasssss.Those are some of the pics of my journey to 1st day of work. Haha. Work was pretty exciting. And i was pretty
SHY! Sheesh. I had to learn how to wear a kimono by myself and remember a whole load of things!!! Towards the end i was getting better at communicating. Haha. No doubt I did several mistakes! Like holding the wrong side of chopsticks when setting the table, using the wrong cloth to wipe the cigarette dish, throwing the used tea leaves in the wrong place,
making the tea that's too thick in colour and the
FUNNIEST thing was when pouring the leftover black light soy sauce into a mug, the cover dropped into the mug that's filled with like 500ml of soy sauce! HAHAHA. I couldn't even see the cover in the mug. Then the senior whose name was Vincent, a part-timer too, who spends daytime repairing airplanes, was laughing like a prawn...HEI HEI HEI! His laughter was liddat lah. Haha. Then i got so pai seh i blushed! He helped mi to retrieve it but in vain. And Candy the overall in-charge, the woman who gave mi this job helped mi retrieved it. Haha. Madness.
Even one group of jap customers besides the ah peks and uncles in Chinatown ji siao mi lah. There was this group. I remember, table 02, outdoor table. This man kept looking at me. He asked if i was new. Then i went back to Candy and told her as i smiled when coming back. She said the way u pour tea they surely know that u are new lah! Haha. So i became more observant and did wad the seniors did for the other customers. I was exceptionally awkward when i always walked past table 02 coz tt man kept looking at me. All i replied was with a smile and a nod. I couldn't have possibly thrown my shoe at him! Haha. He's not cheeko lah. He's just...i dunno how to say...perhaps he just treats me as a newbie...like an apprentice. He even asked mi where am i from. And he kept nodding at me when he got noth to say. Zzz.
There was no customers that called mi
HOI HOI HOI like what ms lim said leh. Aniway, the staff's good. I feel like a toddler there coz besides mi being the youngest, the next youngest is 25 yrs old! They're all really friendly! I LIKE! They're all really caring coz they asked where i stay and asked if im tired, even the female cook! Candy even said i could drink water freely when im tired and bothered to ask me and change my shift till 10.30 instead of 11 coz she thinks it's quite tiring for me to change bus and mrt. (Actually I got direct bus home! Now den i know! Hee.) They speak in canto sometimes coz most of them are Cantonese, which makes mi feel at ease coz to me, I think that ppl who speak in dialect often feel at ease with each other, even though i dun understand a single word they say. I dun mean vulgarities hor. HAHA. Shuhui, a full-timer, asked mi which dialect am i from, and another funny thing...there was a private room for the customers in the restaurant...so when we cleared the table, there was leftovers. Meat & Tempura untouched. Then shuhui ate and told mi to try eating it. She shook her head and said
lang fei! LOL. The dishes were good ok! Haha. And when i see the bills,
MY EYES POPPED OUT. The cheapest bill was 120+, and the most ex was 380+. Haha. Prepare
MASTERCARD if u wan mi to serve u. HAHAHAHAHA.
The restaurant's owner is the chef himself, as Ms Lim and Candy have taught me. His name is Nagae-san, and hence the restaurant is named after him. Nagae Restaurant. Selling authentic Jap cuisines. He's really nice, pretty charming too, age around 40+ or 50?! Haha. Aniway, another
SUPER SILLY encounter! I was about to leave and say goodbye to Nagae-san when I was told he was in the changing room, so i went there...and
GOODNESS GRACIOUS! The men changing in there left the curtain half-closed! So i could see them u know...NOT NAKED, but u know...little clothing. OH MAN. They realized it and shouted YES?!?!!?!!! hahaha. They were laughing hysterically at the guy who's been seen by me lah. OH GOODNESS. I felt super pai seh. I quickly asked where Nagae-san was and then left the restaurant. Hahaha. OMG lah.
silly, Silly, SILLY! =XMy legs ache like mad when i reached home! worse than running 2.4km! haha. Im gonna work on thurs evening again! Haha. And leave all those silly encounters behind! It's a SUPER DUPER LONGGGGGGGGGGG entry rite! I blogged for hrs! Hope it covers wad i haven't been updating for a wk or 2! haha. How are each and everyone of u going on in life? HAVE LOTSA FUN AYE!!! :)
posted @ 5:45 PM
-A Longggggggg Complain Entry by the Hunting Queen-
It's gonna be a long, boring and messy entry.
I warned you. haha.
Get ready.
You sure you wanna continue reading?
HAHA. Be prepared... Here youuuuuuuuuuu gooooooooooooooooooo!
I AM SO SHAGGED. lol.
Kindly allow me to :LK@R%@^@s,zdn;skf# bout my 'job' as a hunter. This thick-skinned woman went to dunno how mani places just to search for a comfortable job with her interests and the idea of a good pay and working hours.
3 days ago, I didn't even know what was cpf cut about. Days got boring, a little irritated coz of my womanhood's wk and waiting, waiting and more waiting. Travel fees alone to interviews were pretty high. I went to the new adidas shop and asked if they need workers. They said they only need full time (=those who are not schooling/waiting for results). So i went to tcc HR dept for a part time interview with anli and lim. The job requires us to work till late hours...like 2-3am (not everytime, but once in awhile due to changing in shifts) plus with low pay. So i decided to think it through. The other 2 women decided to find other jobs. That night, i found out tt yc's looking for a job too, hence started hunting with him and telling bout tcc.
So we decided to try tcc again the next day...and for me to change it to a full time (to get a higher pay). Tcc wanted full timers and part timers to have at least 6 mths contract...and work till late hrs (as mentioned above). Obviously, yc can't go for it...and i called my mom to tell her bout this. She said it's pretty dangerous and advise mi not to take on this job. I heard from anli tt there's lobang at Carlton for banquets with quite an ok pay, so yc and i decided to go try after tt...since it's near tcc HR dept. We reached there and found out tt there are tonnes of ppl taking interviews, so we had to wait for after lunch. In the meantime, we went for lunch and walked around to see if any shop need helpers. I walked into Giordano and asked for the HR dept, tried calling their number and the HR in-charge was not free/not in to pick up the call! I called until her mailbox was full. haha. and then i couldn't call animore.
When we came back, we had to wait for another half hour, since those interviewers were having lunch. It was kinda rushing coz yc got to go for band prac, and i got pretty tired of all those walking lar. Finally, when we got the chance to get up to the lvl of the HR dept thru a security pass, we found out tt the queue was longgggggggggg, stretched with ah peks and aunties. We got so bored that we left the place without taking the interview. haha. I went home, looked thru Classifieds, tried calling Candy Empire coz they needed staff...BUT, they onli wanted those who are above 20 yrs old. Since I have a fren who works part time in Giordano, I called her to ask her if Giordano need helpers. Came across Classifieds and webbie that Giordano need full timers, but they dun wan students who are waiting for results. I complained that I was shagged. LOL. Fortunately, win and GL have lobang in Marina Mandarin Hotel for part time waitress for Banquets with pretty high pay and their current admin job in ICA. So i decided to take their HR dept numbers and give them a call the next morning.
3rd day, which is today...I purposely woke up at 9am with the help of my frens to call those 2 HR depts. MM Hotel's HR dept...No one picked up the call! ICA...the assistant asked mi to call one hr later to locate her boss. So in my sleepy mood, i wait till 10+am and i made calls again. Again, no one from MM Hotel picked up the phonecall, and the assistant from ICA told mi her boss is not in. Asked me to try after lunch or after 2pm. (-____-lll) I got sian lah. haha. Asked win wad to do now, then he said can try to go MM Hotel directly to ask for form. So i decided to catch some slp before going to MM. 2hrs later, i called ICA for the 3rd time (as it was 12+) and i think the assistant told me she's not in AGAIN. Both of us kinda got fed up lah, coz i kept calling and she kept saying she dunno anithing.. haha. Next, I arrived at MM Hotel and sign up the form for a part time waitress. Now, I have to just wait for their call if they need help. I called ICA after that (2+pm), and the assistant said she's not in the whole day. Try calling the next day at 8 or 8.30am. zzz. Tml if the boss is not in again, I am so going to ROAR in my toilet. LOL.
Lemmi see...i think my skin grew thicker than ever. haha. I think im so despo that i can simply walk into any shop tt i desire working in to ask if they need helpers or not. I went to a total of 8 shops today. Royal Sporting House, Why Pay More (in line with Royal Sporting House), Pacific Coffee, The Coffee Bean, Ben&Jerry's, Gelare, The Body Shop and Marina Mandarin Hotel just to find jobs. haha. ~I AM THE 'CHAMPION'~
Since I have another fren who used to work in Royal Sporting House, i decided to give it a try after asking bout everything bout the job. Royal Sporting House onli wanted full timers (=no fresh school leavers waiting for results), so i didn't know why but i just went in Why Pay More to ask again. I was sooooo touched by this Malay Saleswoman coz she said she'll keep a lookout for me if they need part timers. She told mi to write down my contact number. So sweet rite! Sigh. LOL. For Pacific Coffee and Gelare, the pay was pretty low as a part timer...but we just gave in our particulars aniway. No harm mah. I wouldn't mind working in a cafe too! nice environment! :D The Coffee Bean's 'boss' or the head of HR or sth liddat, gave us a form to fill in, afterwhich he told us he will contact us. But he didn't seem sincere or want to hire us. So kindly heck Coffee Bean for the moment. LOL. Ben&Jerry's was pretty crowded as it's a small shop! But the 'boss' or whoever again, he smiled and asked if we're 'A' lvl graduates waiting for results. We nodded and he said ok, can (with a smile), and handed us a paper to fill in our name and contact number. His smile...oh mann...I was so touched again lah. lol. But tt doesn't necessarily mean that we're hired. HAHA. but the crew looked so young! He said we can wait until by this weekend for his ans. At least he bothered to ans such a qns! And im so dumb to have forgotten to ask him bout the pay! LOL. Last but not least, we tried Body Shop as a full timer. They'll call us if they want us, like wad all the other shops said, just that it's the only full time job tt we sign up for coz most full timers need contract.
IM DONE WITH BLABBERING ALL MY NONSENSE! hahaha. If u dun understand ani or partly of what i've written,
JUST KNOW THAT I AM SHAGGED. LOL.painful for ur eyes rite?! lol. Tml i needa call ICA at 8 for a full time job interview...hopefully i can get to go for it! then i won't go out for the weekend busy finding jobs alr. I need a break. LOL. To do my theory hw!!! And I hope with all my might that the other shops will call me asap!!! Sigh. Im such a despo queen. haha.
Luckily, I met some of my sec sch frens and my sec sch history teacher for a last min dinner coz a fren from Indo is finally back after 2 yrs and so, we decided to meet her even though it's last min. Since I was ard the corner after job hunting, I decided to meet them. I miss the good old days. lol. Cleanse my shagged soul for the night. lol. still shagged though, haha, but i felt a little better.
I miss the boy too. Not meeting him this wk too. Sigh. haha. Msged him. No reply. Think he's busily snoring. Took bus home with a few of my frens and on the bus, we met GL's parents. His dad folded origami and gave it to me. I tot he didn't know i'm GL's fren! lol. Nice.
"Finding job isn't easy at all, children."
NOW I KNOW. haha.
This grown up baby needs a job
RIGHT NOW.
JIA YOU LATER!
posted @ 1:47 AM
No more schooling for me!!!
ALOOOHAHAHAHAHA!!! I just flew back from North Pole. U guys had fun??
Xmas eve was good, Xmas was good, Anni/New Year Eve was good, New Year was good, Post New Year was good!
Tomolo, I'm gonna shake my butt to Wheelock Place & pray tt they
wanna hire me. Besides thattttt...I gotta read Classifieds like a novel, coz I'm simply too lazy to submit resumes. :)
Other than that, I got to continue theory cls, do my work regularly, read SAT guidebook and invent my own new Highway Code for ALLLLLL the upcoming exams. Seems like schooling huh? hahaha....NAHHHHHH. IM FREE FROM THE EDUCATION SYSTEM FOR AWHILE!!! wahahahahahahahahaha!
Look! No more sheepish & tired school day look trying to smile forcefully...Lesser pimples...Hair won't be like the one above animore! No more baby hair springing out like sprouts...no more cockroaches fringe...No school uniform! No more worrying bout tests...exams...hw deadline...bla bla blaaaaaaaaaaa. NO NEED TO WAKE UP AT 6.45AM!!!!! wheeeeeeee!
Tomorrow, when im out on the streets...ppl must be thinking im from international school...otherwise...im on mc...or im an ah lian...orrrrrrr...whatever they gonna think, i know they must be thinking "WHAT IS THIS YOUNG GIRL DOING HERE?! SHE SHOULD BE SCHOOLING! SHE MUST BE A BAD GAL...ONLY __ YEARS OLD! HOW CAN!!!" lol.
It's EARNING MOOLAH TIME!!! :D
ohhh...still got celebrations and gatherings to attend!
Jobbity Jobbity Job!!!
posted @ 7:50 PM
The Eve of the Eve of XMAS
haha. this entry has noth to do with xmas. but there was this short excerpt tt i tot was pretty funny.
-ESTHER & me...msn conversation...-
*chatting bout our weights...note tt cranky gal's funny reactions*
esther~ faith and hope is all that i need says:
are u sure u weigh the same as ur grandma?
esther~ faith and hope is all that i need says:
ur grandma so heavy ah? haaaaaa
esther~ faith and hope is all that i need says:
are u sure?!?!! sooo lite. go fatten urself!
esther~ faith and hope is all that i need says:
no la, u can't be lighter anymore! insane...
esther~ faith and hope is all that i need says:
no u can't!!!! then i'll look so fat!!
esther~ faith and hope is all that i need says:
.....then become an ethiopian...is it? IS IT?!?!!!!
esther~ faith and hope is all that i need says:
cannot!
HAHA. rubbish woman. oh..i gonna declare myself...OFFICIALLY BROKE. wheeeee.
posted @ 12:23 AM
yaya. sausage lips...fat lips...thick lips...piggiest pig!
seeeeeeeeeee la. i wanted to blog a nice entry on a later day! i have to explain wad's my condition now...
So evil ppl say i have chicken sausages lips hor. wad else. pig. ok larrr. i admit im a pig. but chicken sausages is not wad i wan!!! u see how much practises has killed my lips. got deeeeeeeeppppppppp teeth marks too! PLUS, my fingers had cramps at times, and holding the clarinet too long is hurting my thumb badly. and my 2nd finger is getting a blister...or a bump...or sth liddat...i need a finger band!!! I guess the worst is my lips lah. it cracked until dunno like wad. everyday have to peel off the excess skin. bite too hard larrr. coz 2nd & esp 3rd clar is always highly demanded. It's just the low notes lor...and that we're surrounded by trumpets and loud sounding instruments. That's why we can't even hear ourselves when we play FORTISSISSISSISSISSISSSIIIIIIIIIMOOOOOOOOOOO.
cannot be stressed out man. if not i will kill myself. over music?! cannot cannot. muz enjoy the music. i guess it's all the achings, the too mani practises at one go and ya da ya da...tt made mi feel like crap. at least i get to recover for the next few days!
Sooooooo, feel free to call mi chicken pork sausages lips all u wan! hahahahaha! coz by 30th, no moreeeeee!!!! wheeeeeeeeee!!!
GREEN, SILVER, NO RED. haha. LIME GREEN. SHINY SILVER. patterns no patterns? lol. ask the j1.
"O COMEEEE...O YE FAITHFULLLLLL...LALALALALALALALALA~~~~~~~"
posted @ 12:39 AM
A Tribute to the Lousy Queen Of Pigland
Suddenly, i miss the stupid ger, even though she's coming back in a couple of hrs time. I hope she scared the ghosts in Japan with her horrid looks.
Once upon a time...blaaashittttaaaaaaaaaaa!
An evil china-korean suster was born.
"Pui! Why she so act cute!"
She decided to be nice & took a friendly photo with me. It was palm-tree singing day.
"Why pon lessons huh! just to take nice nice pic izzit, in the canteen facing the sinks & the stupid tv that onli broadcast DV xiao yuan & -999 days to A levels..zzz..onli know how to act innocent..."
Later, evil suster took on a job, that is to irritate me.
"You are the irritance of my life! Die! HAHAHAHAHA!"-quoted from the book-
Evil Susterland
I think she totally loves it when she succeeded.
Let's tell u a little more about her sins.
She's a pig. QUEEN OF PIGLAND.
"Yo Ramly! You're with the family! ...Get fatter than fat! ..."
If that's not enuf, ........she loves to cut me, steal the limelight and acts like chicken little, loves stealing my money & present...bla bla bla...*yawn* Too mani sins to name!
"AHHHHH...go die la!always run run run! dance somemore la! dance until u sprain ur ankle!"
"Guai...take this knife & kill urself, okie?"
"Okie master. I shall always obey u, my worthy Empress."
Did she die?! Is she dead yet?!?!?!
Dreads. BANNAISBACK.
Look how ugly she is on Grad day. Hohoho. Im no better. Crap.
& on Prom Night...Evil suster showed her capability of being evil. Reddish. Horns.
We reveal ourselves! After 2 yrs down the road! We celebrate victory with glam!
"oi u. *knock knock* dun mess with us hor. i slam ur ass i tell u. bleah."
"chey! u onli got one puny toothpick to poke us?! u know what we have? our fat arse to crush u! shoo!"
"What!!! U have ur cocolatte gang of drunkards to help u!??! WHATTTT!!! 10000 donkeys! i onli have ummm...this evil suster. nah. take her. dun take me. u having doubts? dun lah! She very powderful! can help u crush ppl! Nah! Take her with u!"
"puhhhh-leaseeeeeeee...*pouts* Dunnnnn takeeeee meeeeeeeee awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..."
The evil suster died after tt unknown raped her. He left her tt ugly. Ugliest of all pigs.
THE END.
ok done. LADY COME BACK! i mua...muahfwahhh...milaa...misssiliuuuuu!
The b4 and after.
2 yrs of aging. Masters of a thousand faces. Entry to womanhood. Love us.
P.S. The 3 other mamas will never be forgotten! All treated with equal, big-hearted, open-minded love! yea we're lesbians. muacks! *hugs* mamas rocks my socks!
"oops. i think the woman is back. SHE HEARD ME CALLING OUT FOR HER!!! SHE'S BACK! Bish is back too! HURRAHHHHHH!!!" shalala~
posted @ 2:29 AM
Phew. Sure is going to be tough.
FIRST UP...
THE BADS:
Im hot-headed. Very easily hot-tempered. BAD BAD BAD.
Im as stubborn as a mule.
I dislike tummy. u know? fats? tummy? ugh.
I particularly moan and groan and roar and scream at ppl who lie to me.
I got a weak heart.
I think i got high blood pressure. Did I mention I get stressed up over the slightest stuff?
OH OH OH. I procrastinate ppl who don't respect me. U really need to take a good look at yourself.
My eyes can pop out. BEWARE.
I think I love bitching.
I eat irregularly. Tat explains me not growing up.
Oh yes. One more. I wake up when the sun sets. COOL HOR.
NOW FOR THE GOODS! YIPPEE!
hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
I love socialising. alot alot!
I want to become a model of my own world. YAYA. DREAM ON.
I love those who love me. Embrace, cherish and all nicey stuff! *HUGSSSS*
Ah. Yes. I love colouring my toe nails, buying chunky earrings & being pretty though i dun think im worth it.
I LOVE PARADOXES OF LIFE. I LURVE, LURRRVEEEE, LURRRRRRRVVVVEEEEEEEE THEM.
FOR GDNESS SAKE, DUN CLASSIFY ME AS 'CY LOVES TO BE A PRINCESS!' YUCKS. MY TERM: RAGDOLL. ugly and tattered. damn cool.
I can go on forever. I'll just stop here. Know more bout me thru my entries! *wriggles my nose*
